Self-Care: Being

Be


I woke up like I usually do, barely conscious, reaching for my meditation, hoping that would give me insight to the day. My brain has been in panic mode even with the solid meditation I had last night. This morning was no different. I kept trying to center myself and clear my mind. People aren’t perfect. They get it wrong.

Towards the end, I decided to let go of having “the perfect session” and just let be what was going to be. My mind fog cleared a lot, thoughts ebbed, and I was able to just be. Even though the Bible still triggers me, there is a verse that mentions “Be still, and know that I am God.” It is very simple, yet very profound. Be still. Take moments out of our busy day to clear our mind and just be still. And know. Know the truth. Know justice and mercy. Know love and compassion. Know kindness. BE and KNOW.

So I just sat there for a while after the meditation being. I wasn’t “trying” to be anything. I was just being. I am still learning my innate worth in being a human. Not because of what I do or how much I write. Let me tell you, what brought this on was a rush of thoughts of “I don’t have a blog entry” even though I did one at 1:30am this morning. This series about self-care and being yourself and knowing that you have worth even because you are a human being simply worthy of respect is for me just as it is for anybody!

I guess what I’m trying to get at this post is in other posts I’ve been challenging you to look towards the future and be more than you are, because I know you can be better. THIS is not about that. This is about the beauty you already have inside you, the respect you deserve and the love you should give yourself for being where you’re at because you made it this far and you are standing, sitting, or laying tall. This is about you, in this moment, being you, in all your glory, and just that, taking light in simply being. Just like you don’t have to be rich and successful and have the next big thing to be happy, you don’t have to be changing yourself to simply take a moment to be, and be happy with that!

So before the year ends, take a moment to set down your lists, put down your phone and everything in your hands, maybe crawl into bed, and take five to say “I am me, and that’s okay. I am me, and I deserve love. I am me, and I love the me I am being.”

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