"You Hold Nothing"

“You Hold Nothing”

 

Part of the unbinding ritual in Agatha All Along is chanting “You Hold Nothing” at the person who bound your powers until you believe it yourself. Today holds significant purpose for me, and it has held me back for too long. It is the anniversary of my mother’s car accident many, many years ago. It seems like no matter if I remember or forget September 17th, it always comes back to haunt me, being a bad, unlucky day.

Today, it holds nothing over me. I declare it to be true. I’ve had trouble with pain and exhaustion the past few days, pushing myself past my limits, yet as I type this, I feel a surge of emotional energy reaching out through me to all of you declaring it has no hold on you.

What has been holding you back? What have you been afraid to let go of? What has been deep inside you all along that you have been afraid to unleash or have given that power to someone else? It’s time to take control back. The time is now.

Take a few deep breaths. Center yourself. Put one hand on your heart and the other on your stomach and breath, feeling the air going through both hands, deep into your abdomen. Focus on what it is you want back. Focus on who is stopping you. Is it yourself, your fears, letting someone else control your emotions? Forgive yourself. You were doing the best you could do. Be kind to your past self. It is yourself. It was yourself. Let that version go and grow into a new version, the version that better suits the new you.

What was taken from you? Focus now. Let it come back to you. Let it be released from expectations and center back into yourself. Remember, whatever was binding what spiritual or emotional healing you needed has no hold on you. It holds nothing.

How do you feel now?

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