Christmas

Pain...And Maybe Hope?


Merry Christmas, even to those of you who it’s not very merry especially to those of you who it’s not very merry. I hope this day gives you presence to look forward to, but if it doesn’t, I hope you find a smile somewhere today. I know what it’s like to wonder how the world can keep turning when your world, your heart, seems to stop forever in pain and grief. It cannot be ignored. It can only be felt. I am here with you today if you need someone to sit with you. I cannot offer words of wisdom. There aren’t any that I know of. But hugs are there for you!



I was going to end there, but there’s something I feel I have to add. There’s about a week left until the year ends. To many of us, it’s just another year, but maybe we can think of it as an opportunity for a small step of growth? Not these giant leaps that big commercials want you to think about, but small changes in mindsets of “I want to be more positive and I’m going to do A, B, and C to do that” or “I want to go through my contacts of X, Y, and Z over the year so by the end of the year, I will have a clean, updated list.” One thing last year that started to get me out of my depression was that I felt hope. I don’t know where the hope came from, but it was associated with the new year. So maybe Christmas isn’t your thing, but maybe now is the time to start planning for hope!

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  1. AnonymousDecember 25, 2024 at 9:29 AM

    Christmas is Merry for me. I lost the love of my life but I choose to go on with positivity. My late husband enjoyed Christmas so much! I know it was his favorite holiday. I love this holiday as much as he did. It’s more than what’s under my tree . It’s about my family and friends and the love I feel. I miss my husband and yes wish he was physically here with me but I know he is with me always.

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